Just a thought

"Be Free!".

To do things for the sake of..

Isn't this a pathetic reason of living? I can feel the suppressed condition of a person living with this thought. Or am just being pessimist? Maybe this will depend on what word you'll end the sentence.

I like my end word to be Freedom. Always been my principle in life, "Be Free!". Now who said I am negaholic? :)

Never too late

Delay

"Perspective on the what you can do when the "delay" happens and not mere focus on what halted."

Delay. A negative connotation will come to your mind once ask to describe it. But hey, I love this word. Sometimes delay coming to action really can make a day whole. Like yesterday, I accompanied Mi to the airport for she came home from a quick emergency vacation. All things were set, we said our goodbyes and I am just sitting on the waiting area for her text confirmation that she's on board. Few minutes or so, she's texting asking where I am. I thought she's joking when she said that she's outside looking for me. To my surprise, there she was...

Events that happen as planned and as scheduled are good. But how will you cope if the plan did not work out as you plotted on your time table? Not good. Lost. Catastrophe even if your OC.

I guess our tolerance of patience and faith will be tested here. Versatility on whatever stimuli life gives us. Perspective on the what you can do when the "delay" happens and not mere focus on what halted. We can control most but not all in this short journey. When you get a flat tire along the way, smile. You might just meet someone who's tracking the same road you're going. Or perhaps God is putting you to a pause mode to save you from a true disaster (9-11)...

Nevertheless, if things happened, surely behind in it is a reason. For what it means? Maybe we need to delay it for now so we can see the picture better tomorrow...

Its been awhile

Mt 16:13-23

Its been awhile since my last post here at myBlog. Oh my, I even is having some memory check here since I am trying to remember the format I am using when writting. Anyway, lots of things happened to me from my last post till now. Just to name one, I am now in my new department and currently doing e-mail support for DELL.

As of this time, I am still having some adjustment to my current task. Nosebleed, I must say. But its worth it since I learn new things each day...literally!

Anyway, I can't let this day pass without posting something since this day is an important day to me. It's our monthsary! Without a sleep yet and with the unstable Internet connection (thanks to Smart) fingers crossed that I will be able to post this, let me extend my greetings to Mi. Love you Mi and Happy Monthsary!

**Makareserve ne tang luklukan kulang ng sounds, Doritos and pear juice...

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Mi's day

8 Letter Emotion

Unspoken words
thoughts never 'lease
Within this vast
emotions never freed


Outlet is denial
on gossip though are true
For even truth set free
tis, withstand can't be

Gratitude I do give
to the One above look to
For thanks won't worth a thing
if love of mine won't feel

Forgive in totality

" But I see forgiving as like giving."

Yesterday I attended the last mass at Holy Rosary in Angeles City. Coming out from work at 6:45 in the evening and anticipating the traffic, I decided to visit the Blessed Sacrament first while waiting for the last mass. Solemnly I prayed. Spending ten to fifteen minutes at that place prepared myself to feel His presence.

During the mass proper on the part where the priest says his sermon, I was deeply struck by the two aspects he tried to inculcate to the church goers. First is peace. Inner peace that is. And second is forgiveness. Inner peace, such a wonderful word. See, when I hear this word I immediately relate it to sleep. I think you'll agree that people with inner peace are the people who have a sound sleep. No bothered conscience to worry every time they try to close their eyes. And same goes when they open it upon waking up.

Forgiveness. This is the aspect I've focused more on the priest sermon. It is easy to say that you have forgiven a person but then again sometimes we tend to put a condition on the forgiveness we give. " I forgive you for your mistake but don't show your face to me again!", a classic example of forgiving with a condition. With the example I have stated a question pop up in my mind...did we really forgive the person with that precondition? I guess not.

Just recently, myButterfly's ex-boyfriend posted some malicious/degrading comment on my recent blog. It is myButterfly who informed me about the lewd post. What is my initial reaction you might ask. Anger? Revenge? I guess I did feel the normal reaction any man would feel. However, upon breathing some air and a few minutes of composing myself, I realized I just have to ignore those comments.

Thank God I was able to hamper myButterflys' anger by continuously conveying to her that we just need to ignore those comments and rather believe in my love to her. Minutes past and everything went under control.

I felt that I need to avenge at some point but deep within me I knew it will not be fruitful at end. The cycle or war will just run in circle if I do the same thing to her ex . I have a principle for this kind of people...Denial is the best punishment! It will be a sweeter revenge for me to see him wait for nothing with regard to my reaction. True enough, I saw no more post from him.*

I have forgiven that man. For in forgiving him for his wrong doings benefited me more. I have inner peace. I can sleep soundly at night. I have no baggage in my heart to carry. It is not an easy task to forgive. To answer this dilemma, I change my perspective in forgiving. I see forgiving as like giving. Better give than receive. And things will be lighter for me to deal.

Hopefully myButterfly will forgive his ex. And that is forgive in totality...

* I adjusted the security of my accounts as well

**Thanks to Google for the picture

Our day

Happy Monthsary, Mi.

the awakening..

Shu & Mi